For One More Day

If you had the chance, just one chance, to go back and fix what you did wrong in life, would you take it? And if you did, would you be big enough to stand it?

The Stand

May mga bagay sa buhay natin na mahirap palagpasin. Yung pag hindi mo nagawa, eh sasabihan ka ng mga tao na "You missed half of your life!" Andami na nagsabi sa akin nito, at kung totoo man silang lahat, namiss ko na siguro buong buhay ko. Para sa akin, kasama siguro sa mga bagay na hindi mo dapat palagpasin eh yung Hillsong United Concert.

Matagal na naming kinakanta yung mga gawa nila, matagal na kaming sumasayaw kapag naririnig silang magpraise and worship, at matagal ko na ring gustong pumuntang Australia para makasama sila magworship kay God. Oi, dont get me wrong ah, malupit rin naman talaga ang WIN-Manila Music Team (",), pero syempre iba pa rin pag yung original yung kumanta. Kaya nga nung nalaman namin na pupunta ang Hillsong United ito, di na ko nagpatumpik tumpik pa at nagdesisyon na manonood kami.


Sobrang daming pumunta last November 21. Twenty three kami from church. At tsaka puno talaga yung Ninoy Aquino Stadium. At kahit na General Admission lang yung ticket namin, hindi yun naging hadlang para hindi namin maenjoy yung presence ni God. Mararamdaman mo naman talaga na binalot ng presence ni God yung buong place. Sigawan. Kantahan. Sayawan. All for God's glory.




"DO IT." Ito yung paulit-ulit na sinabi ng Youth pastor nila. Bilang mga kabataan, may malaking responsibilidad tayo na dapat gampanan sa ating bansa. At sa mga dreams na nilagay ni God sa puso natin, He wants us to do it, kahit ano pa yun. God wants us to make a difference sa place na kung asan man tayo.

before ng concert

Ang galing nga eh. Kasi nung tapos na yung concert, tas nagsisisgawan yung mga tao ng "MORE". Imagine bumaba na sila ng stage, tapos bumalik ulit para ituloy yung Praise and Worship. Siguro, nakakanta pa sila ng more or less 5 songs.

eto lang yung kinaya ng zoom ng camera namin.. :(

After ng concert, para akong naligo sa sobrang pawis. Sumakit rin yung likod ko for 4days dahil sa natuyuan ng pawis. Pero sulit naman eh. Iba pa rin talaga pag yung pagod mo para kay God, kasi Siya rin yung magbibigay ng new strength sa'yo. Sana pumunta ulit sila dito, at next time, sisiguraduhin ko na asa court seat ako. (",)

mga pawisan after ng concert

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The Stand
by Hillsong United
album: United We Stand (2006)

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke all life into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory

Love. Hate

Gusto ko ng ganitong T-shirt... :)



Kahit na hindi naman talaga hate ang kabaliktaran ng love, kundi indifference.

Hold Up

Uso na naman ang hold up-an ngayon lalo na at malapit na ang Pasko. Kaya kailangan talaga ang dobleng ingat.

May mga mandurukot kanina sa bus na sinakyan ko. Pero ok lang ako, walang nakuha sa akin. At kanina, napatunayan ko na totoo pala yung gimik na duduruan ka ng magnanakaw para madistract at makuha nila kung ano man yung bagay na gusto nilang kuhanin sayo. Nakuhaan ng cellphone (Ericsson P900) yung mama na nakaupo sa likod ko.

Apat yung magnanakaw. Sabay sabay silang sumakay sa may bandang Lawton kung saan marami pang ibang sumakay. Umupo sila sa iba't ibang pwesto at yung isa nga ay dun sa likod namin. May isa pang magnanakaw na nakaupo naman doon sa seat after. Yun yung magnanakaw na dumura dun sa victim. Tapos syempre ang focus nung victim eh doon sa dura na asa balikat nya not knowing na unti-unti ng kinukuha ng katabi nya ang kanyang cellphone. Nung asa Quiapo na kami, sa tapat ng Raon, bigla silang nagpara. Weird, kasi ang ingay nila. Nung time na yun, naisip ko na may "something" kaya tumingin ako. Parang galit yung boses nung mga mama tas nagmamadali silang bumaba ng bus. At doon namin nalaman na nadukutan nga yung guy sa likod ko. Ang laki laki nyang tao pero mangiyak-ngiyak sya. Syempre naman, kahit sino ang mawalan ng cellphone ay tiyak na maiiyak. At nagsimula ng magalit yung mga pasahero. Sabi nung isang mama na bakit pa pinapasakay ng kundoktor yung apat na yun eh laging nakakabiktima yun, dapat daw kilala na nila yung mga hold uper. BAkit daw hindi nirereport sa pulis yung mga ganung insidente.

Sinabi ng katabi ko na last week, isa ring kasabay nila sa bus yung nakuhaan ng 20000 pesos ng apat na lalaki. Feeling nila, same lang yun nung nanghold up kanina. Ang gimik naman daw nila last week, may inihulog na dyaryo na pinulot ng biktima kaya sya nakuhanan ng pera.

At naalala ko yung nangyari rin sa bus na sinakyan ko nung Nov 7. May ahold up rin at katabi ko yung isa sa mga hold uper. Nagpalit pa nga sila ng pwesto ng isa pero wala namang nakuha sa akin. Hindi ko naman alam na hold-uper sila, pero neweirduhan lang ako kasi nagpalit pa sila ng pwesto. Nalaman ko lang na holduper nung sinabi nung isang girl na hinold up sya ng apat na lalaki na kasabay nyang bumaba sa may Morayta. Thankful ako kay God kasi walang nakuha sa akin. Sabi nga ng bestfriend ko nung kwinento ko sa kanya yung nangyari, na God really is with me and protecting me from any harm. Imagine naman, katabi ko na yung hold uper pero hindi ako yung kinuhaan nila ng cellphone. Malamang silang apat in yun.

Ayun lang. Mag-ingat kayo lagi lalo na sa Quiapo, tsaka wag na magtext sa bus/jeep pag nagcocommute kayo. Tsaka silent mode lagi dapat ang cellphone. At wag kalimutan magdasal bago umalis ng bahay, si God pa rin kasi ang may kakayanan na protektahan tayo sa lahat ng oras.

Asan?

Ewan ko kung ano nangyayari sa akin. Lately kasi, parang nawawalan na ako ng gana.

Una, sa trabaho. Pero kahit dati pa naman, hindi na ako nag-eenjoy. Ang problema nga lang sa akin, wala akong ginagawa para makaalis dito. Minsan iniisip ko na masyado na ata akong nagpapakamartir kasi nagtitiis pa rin ako dito, or masyado akong mabait, hindi ako makapagsabi ng "NO, hindi na po ako magrerenew." Or wala lang talaga akong lakas ng loob para sabihin na ayoko na. Ewan. Wala na rin atang sense maghintay pa ng panibagong project na may matutunan talaga ako, parang tama na yung halos one year na paghihintay.

Pangalawa, nagsasawa na ako sa mga bagay na gusto ko dating gawin. Alam ng lahat na sobrang hilig ko magbasa dati. Na kapag nakahawak ako ng isang libro, mahirap na para sa akin na tigilan ito. Kaya nga dati, kahit na 2 days before ng final thesis defense at hindi pa talaga kami tapos sa thesis, eh asa Quiet Zone ako, at umiiyak dahil sa binabasa ko. Buong hapon yun ah. Tapos, one week akong di nagreview dati para sa boards dahil tinapos ko yung pitong books ng Narnia, one book a day. Pero ngayon, hindi nga ako makatapos ng isang chapter. Hay... Tapos, last Friday, asa Robinson's kami ng bestfriend ko, at niyaya niya ko sa Powerbooks. Alam mo yun, pagpasok ko, parang inikot ko lang yung tingin ko, wala man lang nakakuha ng interest ko. Ako pa yung nagyaya na umalis na kami dun, habang siya eh nag-eenjoy sa pagbabasa. Tapos upto now, di ko pa rin nasisimulan yung book na regalo ni Julius nung birthday ko, to think na gustung-gusto ko talagang magkaroon ng copy nun. Anong nangyayari?

Pangatlo, eto medyo nakakatawa to, pero ngayon nagsasawa na rin ako magpicture. Ewan, di ko na feel.

Ayoko na rin magsulat. Siguro nafru-frustrate lang ako kasi hindi naman talaga ako magaling magsulat. Minsan kasi pag nagbabasa ako ng ibang blog, eh napapaisip talaga ako, yung tipong masyado akong naaapektuhan ng mga sinulat nila. Gusto ko rin maging ganun, pero ewan ko, di ko yata kaya.

Pati nga yung pagbuo nung puzzle tinigilan ko na. Kelan ba ko last na nagbuo nun? November 1 ata. At hanggang ngayon, ganun pa rin itsura nya, walang nadagdag.

Anong nangyayari sa akin? Minsan, pag tumitingin ako sa salamin, eh iba na nakikita ko, parang di ko na kilala. Asan na kaya yun? Saan na nagpunta yung dating ako? Problemang malaki to.

Someday

someday you'll gonna realize
one day you'll see this thru my eyes
by then i won't even be there
i'll be happy somewhere
even if i can't

i know you don't really see my world
you think your the last guy on earth
well i've got news for you
i know i'm not that strong
but it won't take long...
won't take long...

'coz someday someone's gonna love me
the way i wanted you to need me
someday someone's gonna take your place

one day i'll forget about you
you'll see i won't even miss you
someday... someday...

right now, i know you can't tell
i'm down and i'm not doin' well
but one day these tears
they will all run dry
i won't have to cry
sweet goodbye

'coz someday someone's gonna love me
the way i wanted you to need me
someday someone's gonna take your place

whooa one day i'll forget about you
you'll see i won't even miss you
someday.. i know someone's gonna be there

someday someone's gonna love me
the way i wanted you to need me
someday someone's gonna take your place

one day i'll forget about you
you'll see i won't even miss you
someday... someday...

Congrats to the new ECEngineers...

At dahil pumasa si Jayrald sa ECE board exam, nilibre nya kami last night. Dapat sa Dad's or sa Kamayan, pero since late na at sarado na yung mga nabanggit na restaurants, sa Heaven and Eggs na lang kami kumain.

Eto mga pics namin dun, er, ng food pala...

hehehe.. excited kumain...

Busog sobra. Di ko naubos pagkain ko... Actually, si Raf at Frank lang ang nakaubos ng food nila. May take out pa kami. Ngayon lang talaga ako nakaexperience na parang ang konting tingnan sa menu,pero pag sinerve eh sobrang dami pala. The best yung nachoritos nila, lumpia wrapper na ginawang nachos. :)


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Nakakalungkot lang kasi hindi 100 percent passing ang UP sa boards. Buti na lang nung batch namin, pumasa kaming lahat, kasi nakakahiya talaga pag may bumagsak sa amin dahil 9 lang kaming nagtake.

At mas nakakalungkot kasi dalawa sa mga kaibigan ko ang di pumasa. :(

Anyway, congrats sa mga bagong ERGineers:

Engr. Jayrald Humarang
Engr. Ariel Ibayan
Engr. Benelee Villarico, thesis partner
Engr. Kristine Limlingan
Engr. Gianina Daway
Engr. JP Paga
Engr. Miko Jamoralin
Engr. Miko Camaclang
Engr. Niña de Polonia

at sa mga CEL mates

Engr. Hans
Engr. Derick Payumo


at sa iba pang kaibigan

Engr. Alex Alfaro
Engr. Janet Balanquit

Take it All

A Devotional based on “Take It All” from Hillsong United’s CD United We Stand
By Dan Wilt

He lifted the small communion cup to his lips, shaking uncontrollably the entire time. Two men moved quickly to his side – one rubbing his back, and the other helping him to steady his hand. This scruffy and weathered man had lived on the street much of his adult life, alcohol his merciless companion on a journey that would reduce most of us to a state equal to, or worse than, his own. Now, in a moment of simple worship, he was offering himself fully to the God who had steadied his heart while his hands and head still tremor from years of nerve damage. With a smile toward the understanding congregation, and a kiss to both men’s cheeks, the man lifted his head to heaven and mouthed, “I’m yours.”

“Searching the world,
The lost will be found;
In freedom we live,
As one we cry out;
You carried the cross,
You died and rose again;
My God, I'll only ever give my all.”

For most of us, our daily offering to Christ is a time of scripture reading, a prayer, and then hours and moments lived as faithfully as possible. In our best moments, simple words of thanks roll off of our lips in the midst of daily relationships and responsibilities. In our worst moments, our eyes squint and strain toward heaven, as tears moisten our cheeks and we look down to the dust that seems so familiar (Gen. 2:7). In the face of the daily struggle to be naturally supernatural, the most mundane of tasks becomes an opportunity for the flame of devotion to rise from our restless lives.

“Jesus we're livin' for Your name,
We'll never be ashamed of You;
Our praise and all we are today,
Take take take it all,
Take take take it all.”

There seems to be no offering that is more pleasing to God, nor more fitting in response to the weight of His love infusing the world, than our seemingly unimpressive lives (Rom. 12:1-2). Apparently, God is not more impressed with receiving the life of a prime minister, president or movie star than He is with receiving your life or mine. He is the ever-waiting King, lingering over our lives from the time we breathed our first breath, drawing and wooing diadems like us to Himself.

“You sent Your Son,
From heaven to earth;
You delivered us all,
It's eternally heard;
I searched for truth,
And all I found was You, my God;
I'll only ever give my all.”

If we’ll listen closely, today will hold many opportunities to give ourselves afresh to God, in sacred moments on the street, holy encounters in the shower, and privileged moments where worship occurs not in a stadium but in the sanctuary of a heart that has welcomed Jesus to save it.

Our hands and hearts may tremble in the face of the world we know, just like the man whose story began this reflection. In those moments, with the support of the family of God who He has placed around us, we drink the cup of his love, and with a smile to our friends and a glance toward heaven, we say “I am yours; take it all.”