Overcome

i woke up today with a heavy heart... since saturday, i was feeling so low...

i dont know where all these feelings are coming from... hate. bitterness. jealousy. unforgiveness. i want to confront the people involved but fears held me back. i dont know which will hurt me more

i am not strong. at least, not as strong as other people thought me to be.

i kept on talking to God since saturday.. for Him to take the feelings away.. these feelings are not healthy anymore... He seemed so silent.. seemed so distant... Do you hear me God?

even my dreams haunt me... ive been dreaming the same thing every night.. and it hurts so much... i cant believe that they can still hurt me even in my sleep...the thought of them being together... ugghh..

as i was browsing on some blogs (and mind you, these blogs are written by people i dont even know), i felt the love of God coming out from the computer screen.. God used these blogs to talk to me... and somehow, my burden is slowly easing out... although questions are still left unanswered, i felt that God still do love me... and He is still there, He's still with me, and He's just patiently waiting for me to let go of all these feelings so that He could work in my life...

and the grace of God did'nt stopped there... while reading my daily devotion, im strucked with one of God's promise from 1 John 5:4. it said " for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith."

Yes, we do face difficulties in life, but they only give us an opportunity to trust the Lord and overcome. Without problems we would have nothing to overcome, and thus not be able to receive all the blessings promised to those who do overcome.

i will overcome these feelings until i learn to let them go and let God.

after several months, finally i have my own blog...

i was feeling down since yesterday... there were some things that happened that left me feeling so low... i am emotionally drained... tears ran down through my cheeks and i can't help but wallow in misery...

and then a song popped into my head, and it makes me cry even harder... but this time, it was God's loving arms that wrapped me in a very sweet embrace... i got the title of my blog from this song... here goes:

Always

by Hillsong United

album: More Than Life (2004)

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
With my maker's fingerprints?

Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever I will seek You

Chorus:
'Cause all You are, is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You

Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one name?

Yes Lord... All i want is you.. always...