Overcome

i woke up today with a heavy heart... since saturday, i was feeling so low...

i dont know where all these feelings are coming from... hate. bitterness. jealousy. unforgiveness. i want to confront the people involved but fears held me back. i dont know which will hurt me more

i am not strong. at least, not as strong as other people thought me to be.

i kept on talking to God since saturday.. for Him to take the feelings away.. these feelings are not healthy anymore... He seemed so silent.. seemed so distant... Do you hear me God?

even my dreams haunt me... ive been dreaming the same thing every night.. and it hurts so much... i cant believe that they can still hurt me even in my sleep...the thought of them being together... ugghh..

as i was browsing on some blogs (and mind you, these blogs are written by people i dont even know), i felt the love of God coming out from the computer screen.. God used these blogs to talk to me... and somehow, my burden is slowly easing out... although questions are still left unanswered, i felt that God still do love me... and He is still there, He's still with me, and He's just patiently waiting for me to let go of all these feelings so that He could work in my life...

and the grace of God did'nt stopped there... while reading my daily devotion, im strucked with one of God's promise from 1 John 5:4. it said " for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith."

Yes, we do face difficulties in life, but they only give us an opportunity to trust the Lord and overcome. Without problems we would have nothing to overcome, and thus not be able to receive all the blessings promised to those who do overcome.

i will overcome these feelings until i learn to let them go and let God.