Paalam, Lolo Ben...

Last night, James called. Just talked for a few minutes and told me that someone is crying buckets of tears. I started to cry when he hung up. I felt so sad coz I cannot do anything to comfort someone i loved. Ang hirap, kasi parang gusto ko na ako na lang yung makaramdam ng lahat ng sakit, na ako na lang yung iiyak. Tapos, ngayon, wala pa ako dun sa tabi nya, ni hindi nga niya alam na umiiyak ako dahil umiiyak siya. Sana talaga sumama ako sa Tayabas nung nagpunta sina Mama. Ang tanging naging comfort na lang sa akin, when James promised that he'll take care of his cousin.

To Benj, James, Tita Sharon and Sis Cristy, I know the feeling of losing someone you loved, and I hoped that I helped even in this small way.

When tomorrow starts without me,
and I’m not there to see.
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say,
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand.
That an angel came and called my name
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready In Heaven far above,
and that I’d have to leave behind,
All those things I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
I had so much to live for, So much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you,
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, that that could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of Worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven’s gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From his great golden throne,
He said, “This is eternity, and all I’ve promised you.
Today your life on Earth is past, But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
and since each day’s the same day,
There’s no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true,
Though there were times you did some things,
you know you shouldn’t do.
But you have been forgiven,
And now at last you’re free,
So won’t you take my hand,
And share My life with Me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart,
for every time you think of me,
…I’m right here in your Heart…

Be strong... Have faith...

Sana andyan ako ngayon...

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Paalam po, Lolo Ben...