Thoughts
For the past 48 hours, I've been undergoing a roller coaster ride of emotions.However, I experienced more downs than ups. I find myself crying one moment and then laughing again after some time, and then back again at crying. Most low moments were the times when I'm alone, when no one can see the tears that fall, when it is just me and the Lord. Yesterday, I felt my heart is breaking again, and when I cant control it anymore, I went to the ladies room and cried my heart out. Really, I dont know what Im crying about, I cant understand why the tears kept on coming.
And one thing I learned is that there will be times in our lives when God would allow us to be down in order for us to see how powerful He can be... And tears fall from our eyes to clear our vision and for us to see clearly... And in our lowest points, He will be the one who'll lift us up...
I may not know why God puts me in this seemingly unjust and unfair situation, but I believe that His ways are higher than mine and His wisdom is beyond comprehension.. So what I need to do is to take one leap of faith and trust Him...
Meanwhile, as He's busy doing His work in my life, He sends His love and comfort through those people He blesses me with... Im thankful for the people who stood by me, and encouraged me and told me that I am special during the past two days. Messages came in different forms, some verbal, some through text and some through email or YM chats and some even in their blog entry, yet the sincerity and genuine concern is evident. I'll share some:
"Pinagppray kita. You've been gifted with a smile that lights up the room. Kahit ngaun medyo cloudy ang skies, in time alam namin na makikita din namin yang genuine smile na yan. We also admire your strength that you can smile even when you're burdened. Courage yan hehe" [e-mail]
"Ja, pag nakikita ko sya, nasasktan ako para sayo..."
"Ja alam ko mhrap pro wlang hnd mu kkyanin..ung fear mu n a lot of ppol wd b against it or wd 4 her... Ja, hw mch do dey knw? Do dey c u d way i do? Dey wont knw hw u fil... Deyv nvr bn dr. [text]
"nasasaktan kami pag may nakikita kami na sinasaktan ka...para mo na ring sinasaktan ang church.." [someone told him this]
"kung ako c -----, i wud luk at u and c a great person hus nt letting pride get in the way of our friendship.. i think dat kind of person deserves more than what she thinks she does..." [text]
My life is full of love. And thinking of these people who cared makes me more and more thankful to God coz again He always give me something to smile about.
My stregth is failing me. Yet, just moments ago, God gave me His strength to enable me to face the struggles I have to deal with. And God is slowly wiping away the tears and the pain away. In His time, I will be much much better... In His time...
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"Peace! Be strong now; be strong." - Daniel 10:19
And one thing I learned is that there will be times in our lives when God would allow us to be down in order for us to see how powerful He can be... And tears fall from our eyes to clear our vision and for us to see clearly... And in our lowest points, He will be the one who'll lift us up...
I may not know why God puts me in this seemingly unjust and unfair situation, but I believe that His ways are higher than mine and His wisdom is beyond comprehension.. So what I need to do is to take one leap of faith and trust Him...
Meanwhile, as He's busy doing His work in my life, He sends His love and comfort through those people He blesses me with... Im thankful for the people who stood by me, and encouraged me and told me that I am special during the past two days. Messages came in different forms, some verbal, some through text and some through email or YM chats and some even in their blog entry, yet the sincerity and genuine concern is evident. I'll share some:
"Pinagppray kita. You've been gifted with a smile that lights up the room. Kahit ngaun medyo cloudy ang skies, in time alam namin na makikita din namin yang genuine smile na yan. We also admire your strength that you can smile even when you're burdened. Courage yan hehe" [e-mail]
"Ja, pag nakikita ko sya, nasasktan ako para sayo..."
"Ja alam ko mhrap pro wlang hnd mu kkyanin..ung fear mu n a lot of ppol wd b against it or wd 4 her... Ja, hw mch do dey knw? Do dey c u d way i do? Dey wont knw hw u fil... Deyv nvr bn dr. [text]
"nasasaktan kami pag may nakikita kami na sinasaktan ka...para mo na ring sinasaktan ang church.." [someone told him this]
"kung ako c -----, i wud luk at u and c a great person hus nt letting pride get in the way of our friendship.. i think dat kind of person deserves more than what she thinks she does..." [text]
My life is full of love. And thinking of these people who cared makes me more and more thankful to God coz again He always give me something to smile about.
My stregth is failing me. Yet, just moments ago, God gave me His strength to enable me to face the struggles I have to deal with. And God is slowly wiping away the tears and the pain away. In His time, I will be much much better... In His time...
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"Peace! Be strong now; be strong." - Daniel 10:19
posted by ja! | 9:28 AM
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"The kisses of God
Are kisses of goodness
and loving kindness
Kisses of faithfulness
That never once was broken
The kisses of God
Is like a tender wind
in the morning
Wipe not just the tears
But the small and big fears away
He kissed me a thousand times
For every tear that fell
And there were a thousand of them
And He kissed each of them
He’s always there
when I feel I’m alone
And He lifted me when I fell
Yes, He’s the God of a thousand kisses
His love endures forevermore…"
May the words of this song somehow comfort you and be a reminder of God's amazing love for you...I'm so proud to see a strong woman in you, sis. God bless you, Ja!
thanks ate doths! :) yay, naiyak na naman ako..
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